HELP.

Okay, ladies (and gents). I'm in this situation where basically an ex-coworker and friend set me up with a good friend of his. The guy (let's call him "J") and I have been texting for a month or two. It is absolutely obvious that he feels attracted to me, but I feel no attraction to him whatsoever. I can see us being friends, but nothing more. And I feel bad for saying that, but it's the truth. Anyways, so "J" and I made a bet on a football game that if his team won, we'd go out for lunch. They won. So we're going to Max & Erma's tomorrow at one for lunch.

As if the idea of going out on a [albeit lunch] date with someone I don't like isn't nerve-wracking enough, it's also my first ever date! Which is weird, because I've had boyfriends in the past.

To further complicate things, I have a crush on a fairly close friend of mine I know through church. And I'm somewhat certain that he likes me too.

So basically, I like this guy a lot but I'm going on my first-ever date with some other guy I feel nothing towards who likes me.

I don't know how to tell him that I don't like him, and if he tries to kiss me (which btw, I'm totally against first date kisses) then I don't know how to reject him without you know, hurting his feelings. Because my biggest fear in life is abandonment, and for me, that includes the possibility of abandoning others as well.

HELP. And yes, I realize that no one will respond to this in time for my lunch date tomorrow, which I am, by the way, not looking forward to at all. AHHHHHHHHHHHH

*commence pulling hair out*

debode.

Overflow is my life motto, my mantra if you will. It is the one thing that always brings me back and keeps me centered.


As stated in the description of this blog, debode is Haitian Creole for overflow. Overflow was the theme song and overall theme of the retreat which brought me back to Christ. Thus, overflow/debode is one of the most important things to me. Whether the English or Haitian Creole, it is so powerful to me!


When I really sat down and thought about what overflow meant to me (this was only a year ago tops), I realized that it meant, overflow in love, overflow in hope, overflow in peace, overflow in joy, overflow in grace, overflow in gratitude, overflow in faith, etc. I pray that the Lord may allow Him to overflow in me so that I may in turn show others His Wonder and Love.

You never stop.

The Good Lord never stops amazing me. He can make good come from bad. While I've known this for a while now, I just finished writing a letter to a friend of mine--actually one of the high schoolers I volunteer with. She and I had a nice conversation this past Saturday night after adoration, and it was apparent to me that God is so incredible. She was struggling with guy issues, and I shortly realized that she was going through a very similar thing that I went through with Jon! I am so blessed that while I hate for her to go through that (heck, I still hate that I went and am going through stuff with Jon still!), I'm glad that we have each other since we understand each other and can relate. Our conversation was very fruitful, but I felt the need to write to her. So I wrote a letter to her (one page front and back) which I hope will help. The thing that I thought was SO NEAT was that she didn't even know about Jon, and she also mentioned that she didn't know why, but she felt called to speak to me specifically about what she was going through. God is so good. :)

This song is a beautiful one which perfectly describes my thoughts at the moment. Click here to listen to Your Love Never Fails by the Newsboys.