agape. eros. philia.

congrats! you've just learned three ways to say "love" in Greek! while they all translate to "love," they are all different kinds of love.

agape is the love of the spirit. it's the love from God to us and vice verse. it's also the true lasting love. essentially it's the kind that we all want to say we have. so one might say "I want to agape God."

eros is passionate love. not just sexually, either. although you will notice that eros sounds like erotic, so voila. sometimes people think this is what they feel when they first meet someone they like, but personally i think that's just desire. it's a tricky difference between the two.

philia is the basic form of love. it's what we use when saying we love our parents, siblings, friends, and pets. it's also what we use when we say "I LOVE this song!" or "I LOVE Jeep Wranglers" (which are undoubtably my favorite models of cars--Wranglers for the win!). it's kinda just tossed around. i'm guilty of it. i don't really want to be. i've tried to stop saying things like i mentioned above, and instead change them to "this song rocks!" or "Jeep Wranglers are the best!" but i suppose it's kinda just part of our culture to throw it around like it means nothing. when in reality, love is HUGE.

now that you've learned the three primary forms of "love," it's time for my reflection. woo-hoo! bear with me--it gets interesting, i promise!

i've realized a trend in my life thus far: a bunch of the people i've gotten really close to have ended up walking a different path than the one i'm on. it's a tough reality. my best friend (who i don't even think i can call my best friend or even a good friend anymore) started completely ignoring me after i left for college. some of my exs have crushed me. it hurts. but to quote kelly clarkson, "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger!" love that song! it's my bestie MC's and my song! unofficially? officially? idk anymore haha

anyways. i'm nervous. i've probably vented on here about how i've been struggling with purity in college. and because of these struggles, i'm terrified of having my purity destroyed and my heart tossed away again. i can't deal with that. i've had that happen too many times, and my heart can only go through that so many times.

but i'm also a huge flirt. so part of me blames myself for leading guys on perhaps? or like making them think i'm sexually active when i'm definitely not? idk how to describe it. maybe you get it. whatevs. anyways. i also want to stay a virgin til marriage. i'm almost certain that's a rare phenomenon nowadays because premarital sex is so rampant in our society. but i want to stay a virgin til marriage because i want to give my husband the ultimate gift of that. i want to give my full self to my future husband inside the beautiful sacrament of marriage. but i also don't wanna come right out and be like "so yeah i hope you're not expecting sex cuz that's not happening til marriage." cuz that MIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT scare him and every other guy off haha so tips, ladies? and gents? thank you  :)